TELLTALE (For Christine)

LIKE THE STAINING FROM THE INK THAT RUNS ACROSS MY PAGES  
THESE HALF SMILES BARELY MANAGED TELL A TALE ALL OF THEIR OWN   

               
                                                                                                    

A SMALL WHITE ROOM

I MADE IT OUT THE DOOR AND STUMBLED TO THE STREET. I MADE IT TO THE LAMPPOST BUT I COULDN'T FIND MY FEET.
FEELING VERY DIZZY AS I SENSED THE DANGER THERE.
FEELING AS A CHILD AND SMELLING ETHER IN THE AIR.

I WAS LOOKING UP AND LOOKING DOWN.
I SAW MYSELF CRAWL ON THE GROUND. I HEARD YOU SPEAK ~ YOU WERE NOWHERE.
I FELT YOUR BREATH ~ I FELT YOUR STARE.
ETHER THERE! DANGER THERE! I FELT YOUR STARE! YOU ARE NOWHERE.

I SENSED YOUR SCORN!
I SENSED YOUR STARE!
I SENSED YOU THERE!

I WAS LOOKING UP AND LOOKING DOWN.
LAUGHING, CRYING, BOTH AT ONCE.
I FELT YOUR BREATH!
I FELT YOUR STARE!
YOU WERE NOWHERE.

I MADE IT HOME ~ I KNOW YOU LIED. YOU HAD NO EYES. I FELT YOUR STARE! I KNOW YOU SAW BUT WEREN'T THERE.

LOOKING BACK I KNOW YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE.
LOOKING BACK I SAW THAT YOU WERE THERE.
I WAS LOOKING UP AND LOOKING DOWN. 
IT WAS A SMALL WHITE ROOM.

A SMALL WHITE ROOM WITHOUT A CEILING OR A DOOR. IT WAS A SINGLE BED. 
THERE WAS DANGER THERE!
THE SMELL OF ETHER THERE!
YOU GOT ME HIGH AND YOU WERE THERE!
I SMELL ETHER IN THE AIR.
I SMELL THE ETHER THERE!
IT WAS A SMALL WHITE ROOM.

MOONLIT

AS I WANDER THIS MOONLIT LANDSCAPE I THINK OF THE SHIFTING SANDS OF WHAT WE CALL TIME
KNOWING THERE MUST BE SOMETHING I'VE MISSED
WONDERING HOW IT IS WE'VE LIVED THIS LONG